Saturday, August 21, 2010


   1.having little or no concern for oneself, especially with regard to fame, position, money etc; unselfish.

How do you become selfless when we are born into a selfish world?
How do we, as God's children, find our way out of this addiction that runs thought the entire human race?
Every person is entitled to their feelings and emotions, right.
So what does it mean to really be selfless?

To care about others more than yourself, or maybe to provide and bless others with things that they are in need of.  Maybe it's just devoted prayer for others on a consistent basis.

Jesus was a very selfless man.
Healing, caring for, praying for, providing for, dieing for...
But He ALWAYS made sure that He had enough time for Himself and his father, the God that gave him the strength to do all of the above, and more.

Jesus never masked His emotions, because that's what He felt and what He felt was real.
So, I guess the answer to my question would be,
to be selfless does not require us to ignore our emotions
(pain, sadness, anger, remorse, etc.).
It means that even when we are having a hard time in our lives, that instead of dwelling on it or letting it fester in our minds, to turn into something worse than it already is, to pray hard and long to the God who will save us from the worst of our emotions.
To give it to Him, and He will bless us with the strength and tools to get by.
In whatever season we may be struggling through, or whatever situation where every second is tearing you apart.
He is here waiting for us to give it to Him, to help us get through, so we then can be selfless.

Monday, August 16, 2010


So I have picked up painting. I just went to the store not knowing anything about, well, anything. I grabbed up a few things to get started... 

A few canvases...
a few paint brushes....

and some paint...

So far this is what I have done...

and another...

I am not quite done with this one, but it's coming along.
I am also trucking along with a third.
We'll see where all these end up,
On the walls or in the closet.

Let me know what you all think.

Monday, August 9, 2010

Right or Wrong?

Everyone is different.
The way they see things,

How do you know if what YOU think is right or wrong?
You can't always assume your constantly correct about everything in life, 
otherwise we would never learn or grow or experience.

If your heart hurts for people,
mostly it means you love and care for each and every one of them,

How do you express your love?
When you see hope, potential, movement and grace all encompassing.
And they don't.
It almost hurts.

Trying to love like Jesus loves is hard.
He loves so deeply, so dearly, and yet we reject it daily.
Or don't know how to accept every part of it.

1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

1 John 4:11
Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also, ought to love one another.

Dear Loved One,

  I am sorry if I have ever offended you. Just know that I love you dearly. I pray for you often. I see so much potential in you. I have cried for you, in prayer and in awe of where i see you going in life. I am consumed by my efforts to love without any judgment, and i can only hope you feel the love I have for you.


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Thought's passing by...

The last couple of days I have been feeding my brain with words from a book called:
The Year of Living Like Jesus
By: Ed Dobson
Hence my longing to be a disciple of Jesus.

In this book, the first few chapters he talks about what Jesus ate and wore. He then goes on to compare it to living in today's society and his decisions he must make for himself to LIVE as Jesus lived.

So far it is very interesting. I personally wouldn't go as far as saying I am going to dress and eat like Jesus did.
I am steering more towards his actions:
I want to Love
Have Patience
See the beauty in everyone
Learn how to speak how He spoke.
Have compassion
Not judge
Pray like he did, diligently. 

I feel like I may be a little over my head,
for the mere fact that I am human, and
I like to laugh when people trip and fall, not very Christ-like, ha ha.
(I make sure they're okay, I just can't help laughing)

We will see how I do on a daily basis, especially having to deal with customers that thoroughly enjoy giving me a hard time.


Verses I need to be reminded of often:

Matthew 12v37
For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words will you be condemned. 

James 1v19-21
My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry. 
Because our anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. 
Therefore,  get rid of all moral filth and evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you,
which can save you.

Monday, August 2, 2010


So, one of my kind of recent passions are cameras, learning new things about them and editing. So thought my blogs I will be posting random pictures from my 35mm camera! 

Matthew 16:24-25

Jesus said..., "Who ever wants to be my disciple must DENY themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for ME, WILL FIND IT."

                                                 Matt. 16v24-25

  One who embraces and assists in spreading the teachings of another.

A disciple is not simply an accumulator of information or one who merely changes moral behavior in regard of the teachings of Jesus Christ, but seeks a fundamental  shift towards the ethics if Jesus Christ in every way, including complete devotion.
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I am the furthest thing from being completely
devoted to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ,
But I am here on this beautiful place we call home, for now, to give it a try.

So, how do we deny ourselves for someone we can't see or feel? one of the BIGGEST questions that I have.
But I am here because i would love to find out what someone, who loves me entirely way too much, has in store for someone, a sinner at that, like me.
How do I become so absolutely selfless, without letting people take advantage, run over, or consume all of who I am as a person, but also be in the will of God.
It almost hurts to try and even scratch the surface with questions that consume every part of my mind.
Only because God will only answer the ones He wants at the times He wants.
For the mere fact that God IS,
He probably just laughs at the tiny worries that we have in our incompatible brains.

 Well, it's time to embark on this journey that a special someone has promised us all.
This is my time, my life, and my calling to see where I am led.

Jesus, help me to lose my own life for you, to find the best one waiting from you, for me.